My Mi-yeon. You left us so suddenly on 19-Jun (Thur) night at close to 10pm. Mummy still finds it hard to accept your departure and hopes to hug you again. You're my first human bun....very human bun. You shown to Cotton how trusting humans can be by chest hugging position. My happiest moment with you is also lying you on my chest on the sofa while watching TV together. You could really laid there for as long as 30 odd mins!
Because of you, Cotton gets to eat his fresh vegetables everyday at 6pm instead of alternate weeks basis. Because of you, you brought out the gentlebun of Cotton. And because of you, every ND with similar feature as you like Suki from BW, I too want to hug them as well.
Mummy been self labelling as a 'Tiger mummy' because I do not want to spoil you and become a Paris Hilton. I was told you were a fussy eater who eats only APD gold and no stem, a tantrum thrower who demands attention when needed one, absolutely no begging for treats and slight aggressive if displeased. But mummy believes is because no one shows you what is good-behavior all about or lacks the 1-1 interaction with humans. Cotton and I showed you all these and slowly, you opened up to us: you joined our treats exercise routine, you began taking treats more gently from our fingers, you responded your name, you ate whatever hay was given and the stems and you were never aggressive towards Mummy but at most a little grunting noise if disapproved some of my doings. Do you know that except for your occasion stray pee issue, you are almost a perfect bun?
Then Koogle came along and Mummy did not give you and Cotton the attention you all needed. Mummy thought that since both of you were bonded and seems quite stable - there were many times Mummy caught you both lovey dovey together and you even started to clean Cotton longer each time and frequently. Mummy thought you and Cotton would be just fine among yourselves while Mummy could focus nursing Koogle back to health. Mummy knew Cotton was upset when Koogle came to our house on the 1st day but never knew you would too. Mummy noticed of reduced appetite from both of you but never thought much of and with the mentality 'as long they ate, is fine'; Mummy never thought you and Cotton would fight and fought badly and worst, ignored the bruise at your lower lip because I thought it be self healed over the time. (Thanks Yola for triggering me to recall about the bruise albeit not in time by sharing her experiences about her bunnies).
Perhaps it's the pain from the bruise from the fight causing you to loss appetite; perhaps you were angry with Mummy for neglecting attention to you so you ate lesser; perhaps it could be combination of both reasons but Mummy will never know. Please believe that Mummy was trying to rescue you when syringe feeding you with the Critical Care paste. I have never done it before and placed you at trauncing position on my lap and syringe feed all by myself. Mummy realizes my mistake and truly regret about it....if only time can be reverse. Now Mummy has learnt wiser and syringe feeding Koogle his medicine with Daddy's help.
Mi-yeon, do you know that your departure also let Mummy sees the ugliness of humans' heart? Those who outrightly claimed to love you more than their own never once contact Mummy about you or your well being. Then they shed crocodile tears upon hearing about your leaving and demanded your body. Their extremity to even found out which casket company Mummy has arranged for you and halt their work and pressured Mummy to release your body to them. Mummy was and still is distraught over your death and their demands simply overboard, hurtful and disrespectful. They never once asked a word of concern about your husbun's well being after they heard of your death. They spammed and harassed Mummy with SMSes and Facebook channel about your carcass. And no, they never even said 'Take Care' or a word of consolation to Mummy and Daddy and definitely nothing for Koogle. On the contrary, they claimed themselves as bunnies' lovers and local rescuers. To add salt to Mummy's wound, they always address you by your old name all the while.
Mummy loves you and you are always a part of my family since the date I adopted you. Even if you blame Mummy for being strict with you while you were alive or causing your demise, Mummy hopes that you will bless Cotton be safe and Koogle be healthy before you binky to heaven. You will always be my Princess human bun.
Love you always,
Mummy.
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